I’m Stuck in a Rut and It’s Great (Wait What?!)

May 13, 2013 2 Comments

If you’ve ever heard the saying, stuck in a rut, that’s exactly how I have been feeling.  And if you’ve ever felt stuck in a rut, then you know the feeling.  It’s not the greatest feeling in the world.  I have never heard someone say, “I’m stuck in a rut and its great!”  That would just be weird, wouldn’t it?   I must confess something, I have been stuck in a rut.  I haven’t been in God’s word, I haven’t been having my usually chats with God, and I haven’t been going to church regularly.  My time with God seemed more like a to-do list.  That seemed to be a place I have been before.  When I was younger, I thought the farther you got in your Bible reading guide, the more God would like you.  Don’t get me wrong, using Bible reading guides is a great way to get into God’s word and hear from Him, but I was using it more as a to-do list instead of getting into God’s word.  And I was missing something, God already loved me so checking things off my list wasn’t going to increase God’s love for me.

So how did I let myself get into such a pickle?  I was searching for a church and I was feeling discouraged and lost.  I had been looking for a church that had more young people and I hadn’t seem to find one that God would have for me.  I just stopped going to church.  I felt like I was wondering in a desert for awhile because I felt far away from God and far way from His community of believers.  After 6 months, I went back to a church that I use to go to.  I felt weird because I hadn’t gone there for a while; I didn’t want people to think bad of me.  Praise God, I was welcomed back and I felt God’s love wrap around me.   I was talking to a sweet lady from my church.  She is wise beyond her years and she spoke truth into my life this past week.  I told her how discouraged I was and how I hadn’t even been writing on my blog.  I told her I had no inspiration anymore.  She reminded me that God has given me the gift of writing and when I was far away from Him and His word, the inspiration He had given me wasn’t there.  *ding ding ding, we have a winner….when I was walking closer with the Lord, He gave me the inspiration to write.  When I wasn’t close to Him, my inspiration was gone.  I should have figured this out a lot sooner…wake up, girl!

Sunday morning, I felt led to go up during the invitation and get right with God.  I still feel like I have one foot left in my rut, but I am definitely ready to get out.  So why would I put such a ridiculous title on this post?  Because as much as its really uncomfortable and sometimes miserable to be stuck in rut, its great because it reminded me of how much I need God in my life.  Everything in my life was going haywire because I wasn’t right with God.  I need to be walking hand in hand with my Savior or else things are going to be out of control. I was meant to have a growing, thriving relationship with my heavenly Father.  I am slowly learning.  If only I didn’t have such a thick skull, then maybe it wouldn’t take me so long haha ;)

We are all imperfect people who are adored by a perfect, loving Heavenly Father.  Its okay to be real and honest with each other.  That’s what I learned that Sunday.

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Let Go of the Pen

January 6, 2013 Leave a Comment

It has been forever since I’ve made a blog post..whats wrong with me!  I must have crazy writer’s block or something.  For those worried if I fell off the face of the planet, I am still alive haha!  And for others worried by the title that  I am going to write something crazy, you might be right.  I listened the sweetest song today by Moriah Peters called “Haven’t Even Kissed,” so I thought I should share it!

Many young people like myself worry about finding the “one”!  We get so caught up trying to make it happen for ourselves and forget who is the one in charge, God!  He already has a plan and a purpose.  He will find a way for us to meet the “one,” the person He has perfectly chosen for you.  I was listening to this song today and it really struck a chord in my heart.  When you are praying for God’s guidance and work in your life, He works His plans in the most unlikely of ways.  We need to let Him write our love story because He is much better at that than we are.

The lyrics that stuck out to me reminded me that we have to give God His place in our life to what He knows best to do–work our His plan and bring the right people into our lives.

I have been waiting patiently

I locked up my heart, gave God the key

And I’ve had to trust Him for a while

But now I can’t see you and not smile

Sometimes you seemed so out of reach

I held onto hope but I still felt lonely

Then I gave God the pen to write this love story

So it is time we let go of the pens we are holding.  We need to give our pens to the author of Life.  He is pretty good at what He does!  God seems to write some pretty awesome love stories.

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Finding God’s Fingerprints

November 9, 2012 Leave a Comment

As I am sitting in a coffee shop trying to study for a test, I can’t help but think of God’s fingerprints in my week.  I just can’t get it out of my head, so I must write about it!  God is everywhere.  He speaks through people, events, music, His word, you name it.  Every week, I find myself constantly being reminded of God’s presence in my life.

This week I was feeling overwhelmed by school, work, family, the list goes on.  I have been going to a new Bible study, and I meeting some really awesome people.  I met some new people and I began to ramble like I always do.  I told  them all about my  busy week (great conversationalist, huh), and I said “I don’t know if I can make it through the week”.  And all of the sudden one of the guys said, “I don’t even know you, but I know you can do it.”  Fingerprint of God #3,251,789.  God used him to encourage me; how awesome!  I think the little kid  finger prints on my dad’s restaurant’s windows are numerous, but it surely doesn’t compare to God’s fingerprints!

Right now, I am listening to Luminate’s “Love is Loud,” and it reminds me of how God is everywhere.  This song is pretty fitting for what I have been experiencing.  If you haven’t heard this song or any other songs by Luminate, you must them out!  I love their music; I am pretty obsessed with their music!  (When am I not obsessed with beautifully written Christian music?! haha)

“And every single day we are walking proof.  That every living thing is an echo of You.  You were everywhere, You are everywhere” (Luminate)

Have you noticed God’s fingerprints in your life?  Leave a comment, I would love to hear all about it!

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God, I Think I Need to Reschedule

November 5, 2012 Leave a Comment

If you are anything like me, you get so busy with the day-to-day activities that you can miss seeing God’s work in your life.  Instead of taking the time to see God’s work in my life, I focus on everything but Him.  I think about the stresses of life, work, school, family, you name it.  I need to change my perspective.  Lately, God has been showing me just how important it is to focus on Him.

God has been using divine appointments to reveal to me that He hears my prayers and He has a plan for each detail of my life.  I am no Biblical scholar but when I talk about divine appointments in my life, I am talking about God placing certain people, certain situations in my path for a purpose.  Unfortunately, when I think of appointments, I am reminded how busy I can get.  For example, if I am too busy to make it to a dentist appointment, I can just reschedule or if I just can’t handle one more errand in my day, I can just change my hair appointment to another day.  But, if we treat divine appointments like our dentist appointment or hair appointment, we are going to miss the boat!  We are going to miss God’s work in our life if we can caught up in our busyness.

Recently, God has been showing me that He is active even in the smallest details of my life.  There have been many situations where I sit and think, “That was definitely a God thing; it was a divine appointment.  What if I decided to ignore what God was trying to tell me through these situations?  By getting caught up in the craziness of our daily life, we essentially (me included) miss out on exactly on what God has for us.  I sometimes get so caught up that I think, “Doesn’t God know I am so busy; can’t I just reschedule for a time that would be more convenient for me.”  God knows the perfect time for anything, I just have to remember that.

Do divine appointments really exist or am I just making this up?  With what I have seen in my own life, I believe divine appointments are definitely real.  You can look in the Bible and see how God put people in the right place, at the right time.

Here are the situations that reminded me how God uses situations to remind us that He cares for us, hears our prayers, and has a plan for our lives.

A month ago, I was feeling down because I longed for the community I had at my college Bible study.  I prayed for God’s guidance and work in that area.  I am super impatient and I thought God forgot all about me because He didn’t answer my prayer right away.  The next week I met someone who works near my dad’s restaurant.  He told me about the Bible study he goes to and he even invited me to join his Bible study.  Talk about God placing the right person in your path.  Now I have a Bible study to go to, which I am super happy about!  God is pretty good at His job :)

I must have forgotten God’s work the few weeks prior, because last week I was feeling like He wasn’t hearing my prayers.  One day last week, I was struggling with feelings of loneliness and depression.  I cried out to God, saying, “Don’t you know how lonely I am?  Can’t you bring me friendships or at least some peace about the situation?”  The next day, I was making a laundry detergent run at the dollar store in my small town.  Just as I was rounding the corner, I saw an old classmate from high school.  She also moved home recently and we struck up a conversation.  We even decided to meet the next week and catch up over dinner.  I was thinking, “God you must be crazy.  You brought me a friend in a dollar store.  That is definitely something I wouldn’t have thought up.”  Even better, I can continue ministering to her because she is not a believer.  God does some pretty amazing things when I take the time to notice His workings in my life.

If you are anything like me, busy trying to navigate through this crazy mess called life, don’t miss the opportunities God sends your way.  Don’t get to busy that you miss your divine appointments.

If you have any cool stories about God’s work in your life, please comment.  I would love to hear all about it!

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Lighting the Way

October 5, 2012 2 Comments

I am experiencing a new way of learning this year—night classes!  I moved back home to save some money, so I attend classes at a local college.  Usually when I get home on my longest night of classes it is around 9:30-10:00.   I am sleepy and worn out.  As I head on the highway, cranking up my Christian music and singing as loud as I can, I discovered something.

I watch as the headlights in my car illuminate my path, just enough so I can see a little ways in front of me.  Isn’t that what Christ does for us?  He gives us just enough direction, help, encouragement to see what is facing us that day, hour, minute.  He doesn’t show us the entire path, just enough of what we are facing in that moment.  As much as I would love for Him to tell me exactly what I will be facing for the rest of my life, I am glad He doesn’t .  I am worrier, so that wouldn’t be beneficial for me.  I would be over thinking every situation.

Unfortunately, we live in a scary world, filled with family problems, illness, violence, economic crisis, poverty, you name it.  But, Christ is our light in that darkness. He gives us just enough light to make it through that moment.  I know I couldn’t make it without Christ.  I try to be a strong, independent woman and do things on my own, but that’s not how it works.  I try and fail because I am suppose to be depending on God.  We don’t like to seem weak, but we are weak.  The world says: “Do it on your own.  You don’t need anyone but yourself.  Strong, independent women are the ones that will make it in this world.”  Christ reminds me, “Rest in Me.  I love you so much that I would die for you.  Trust in Me because I hold your life in my hands.  Stop wearing yourself out by trying to do it all on your own.”

2 Corinthians 12:9-11

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Paul definitely got it right.  He realized that he was strongest when he was weak.  What a concept!  The world would laugh at that, but Christ can do amazing things through out weaknesses.

I imagine driving home from class without my lights on.  I would get lost or go right into the ditch.  Without Christ’s guidance in our life, without His light guiding our path, we get lost and confused.  As I am writing this, I am being convicted.  I haven’t been turning my “lights” on.  I haven’t been relying on Christ’s strength and reading my “car manual”, the Bible.  It is time to go back to the basics.

I can just keep the lights on and go about my day lost, worn out, confused.  Or I could turn my high beams on, trusting God will light my path and guide me in the right direction.

Psalm 119: 105

Your word is a lamp to my feet, And a light to my path.

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Exercising Our Faith Muscle

July 15, 2012 3 Comments

(Wow, its been forever since I have blogged.  Summer classes, work, the list goes on…has been keeping me busy!  I am alive, so don’t worry haha!)

My favorite part of the day is the time I before I go to bed.  I love the time I have to read my Charles Stanley devotionals and Bible and to have quite time with God.   This week has been a challenging week.  I was in need of some divine encouragement.  While reading my devotional one day, I get that extra boost of encouragement I needed.

“If we all had lives of ease without opposition, trials or pain, we’d never really know God because we’d never really need Him…Adversity teaches us more about the Lord than simply reading the Bible ever will.” Charles Stanley

What an amazing thought.  If I had an easy time of it, if everyday was smooth sailing, I wouldn’t need to depend on Christ for strength.  Our struggles remind us of our constant need for God’s help in our life.  I was humbled this week.  I was battling a cold, knee pain, work issues, along with watching some of my family members struggle with debilitating health issues.  I was reminded that I can’t do it on my own–I need my Savior to walk alongside me and pick me up when I can’t go any longer.

While doing physical therapy on my knee this week I learned a lot about muscles.  My muscles are weak and I need to do exercises to strengthen them (which is not a fun process!)  Our faith like a muscle.  If we don’t exercise it, it will become weak; we need to constantly exercise it and use it in order to make it stronger.  God places difficult circumstance in our life to strengthen our faith.  It might not be easy, but in the end if will be worth it.  Knowing God has plan has helped me through difficult circumstances.

One of my favorite songs “This is the Stuff” by Francesca Battistelli.  This song played through my head this week.  I think these lyrics sum up how we feel during those rough days.

This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff that’s getting to me lately

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I’m blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

But I gotta trust You know exactly what You’re doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff You use

If you are having a rough time, know that God has plan for your life.  You are working your faith muscle, and you are going to have six-pack equivalent once you are done!  Praying God’s blessing over your life!

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Rejection: Is it Part of God’s Plan?

June 28, 2012 Leave a Comment

I have struggled with rejection my whole life.  I try not to let it bother me, but I have to admit it gets to me.  This morning as I was getting ready for work, I was dwelling on rejection from past friends and peers. Why would God allow for me to go through such painful experiences?  Then a thought popped into my head, and I am pretty sure God had something to do with it.  Rejection is part of God’s plan and it has a purpose.

What if there is a reason why I and many other believers have gone through periods of rejection? And what if that reason is because God has a perfect plan–He is protecting us from relationships and friendships that aren’t right for us.

As much as it is hard to be rejected, knowing that God has a perfect plan for my life is comforting.  He knows what is good for my life and who is good in my life.  No matter what, I know Jesus loved me and you so much that He was willing to die for us.  He thinks we are beautiful, special, valuable, and lovable.  No amount of rejection can keep us from the love of Christ.  Now when I look back on those times when I was rejected, I realize that God had a plan even in that difficult time.  We serve a wonderful God!

If you are feeling discouraged and rejected today, know Jesus loves you more than you could ever know.  He thinks you are beautiful, special, valuable, and lovable.

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I’ve Seem to Misplace Something…Grace

June 26, 2012 Leave a Comment

I have an addiction to knick-knack.  If you saw some of the cutsie things in my room, you would think I was a hoarder of all things knick knacks; I just can’t help myself.  I walked into my room today to discover my newest thrifting find was sitting under my desk–this new find is a wooden cross that has Grace painted on it.  Seeing the cross got me thinking…

As Christians, we fall in to a trap.  Sometimes without even realizing it, we start to think we are better than others, especially unbelievers (Many of us are guilty of this, including myself).  This starts to happen we when figuratively “lose our Grace.”  Now, I am not taking about God taking His grace away from us.  I am talking about when we forget we are sinners saved by grace.  We forget what grace is all about.  Grace is God giving us something we don’t deserve.  We don’t deserve salvation nor can we ever earn our salvation–it is a gift from God.  We didn’t earn our salvation because we did x, y, z but because God loved us.  So how are we better than others?  We aren’t, we are just blessed enough to come to know Jesus as our Savior.  This should spur us on to spread the Gospel so others can have a personal relationship with Jesus as well.

Ephesians 2:8: ”For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.”

Imagine how silly this sounds.

  • “I know I am a wretched sinner, and I know I didn’t save myself, Jesus did.  But, something about me being saved just makes me a better person.”
  •  ”I sure hope there is enough grace for you too, but you never know.  Some of us just get more grace than others.  It depends on what measuring cup you use.”
  •  ”I think on the salvation scale, I might just be more saved than you because I helped at the church bake sale.”
  • “Some people just are savable; you just have to fit the part.”

I know this is an exaggeration but it reminds us how silly it is for us to think we are better than others, including nonbelievers.

We are all sinners.  Every single one of us, regardless of the sin and regardless of how many good works we have done.  We are on a level playing field.  God did all the work when He gave us the gift of salvation through His son–it was a gift.  So, the next time you feel yourself falling into the trap of the “I am better than you because….” remember the grace God has given you.  You didn’t save yourself, so don’t try and toot your own horn.  Don’t just shove that grace in the corner…humble yourself and remember the wonderful gift God has given you!

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Check It Out

June 18, 2012 2 Comments

I am excited today….some of my family, friends, and I have started a new website: What Would Jesus Have You Do?

Check out the new blog!

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Jesus, Faith, and GPS

June 16, 2012 6 Comments

A few weeks ago, my mom and I were looking for a new thrift store.  We were having a hard time finding the store, so I decided to enter the address in my iPhone.  Finally, we were on our way.  The cool thing about my GPS is that it shows you when you go off course and it has a blinking pin right on your destination.  So, if you pay close attention, you will successfully get to your destination.  Easy enough right?  Even with the GPS, we had some trouble finding the store, but we finally got there (We are directionally challenged).

I started to think about my Christian walk.  Wouldn’t it be awesome if Jesus gave us the coordinates of our destinations in life?  Then I could just enter it into my phone and know exactly where I  was going.  The blinky pin would be on my destination and it would show me when I was going off course.  That would be so cool!  But, it doesn’t work that way.  If Jesus gave us a GPS then we wouldn’t need faith to trust Him because we would know our life plan exactly, moment by moment.  One thing is for sure, if we have a personal relationship with Jesus, we know our final destination—heaven.  God doesn’t give us details instructions of where we are going and what bumps in the road we might face, but He does give us His perfect peace and His guidance and direction.  We are able to come to Him in prayer and ask for His guidance and will for our life.

If you are anything like me, you are a major planner.  I plan out my day, my week, my month, my school year, etc.  I plan what I am going to wear, what I am going to eat for breakfast, and what I am going to do after work.  Let’s just say I am a control freak.  Being a control freak and follow the guidance of someone; how does that work?

I am reminded of something my mom said today.  We were walking around a park that we aren’t too familiar with.  I had been to the park recently, so I knew my way around the park better than my mom did.  I told her, “Follow me, I know where to go.”  She didn’t hear me, and she started walking another path.  Then I remind her that I knew the way.  She said,”I guess I am not very good at following.”

The same is true in my Christian walk.  I am not very good at following.  Jesus is telling me, “Come on, Sarah, I already have a path for you, just follow me.  I know the way.”  But, I tell Jesus, “Sure, I will follow you, but first I want to do a few things.  I need to take a detour.”  But, that is not following Jesus.  If I want to be a follower of Christ, I have to give up my plans, and follow Jesus.  His plans and timing are far better than mine.

I came to a conclusion today.  I am missing the point; I am missing the boat.  I say I am a follower of Christ, but I am actually following Him?  Am I trusting Him?   I have been struggling because I want to make my own plans.  I have been going a million miles an hour trying to find a Christian mate.  But, today Jesus nudged me and said, “Sarah, I got it under control, just follow me and everything will fall into place.”  I decided to stop worrying about finding a mate; if it’s God will, it will happen.  Follow Jesus.  He is smarter and a better planner than all of us combined!

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