I’m Like Humpty Dumpty…Are You?

October 17, 2012 Leave a Comment

I am probably one of the most random people.  Bare with me as I tell my random tale :)

 Last night as I was trying to fall asleep, I kept thinking about Humpty Dumpty (I know, I’m weird). 

“Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall, Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. All the king’s horses and all the king’s men couldn’t put Humpty together again”

I kept wondering why could no one fix him, why did he fall, how could horses fix him in the first place.  Then a thought popped into my head: I’m humpty dumpty, we are all humpty dumpty.  Why do I say this?  Because we are all broken, fallen people.  Maybe we aren’t all suffering from physical pain like humpty dumpty, but we are dealing with emotionally pain.  We try to let the world “fix us.”  We use relationships, jobs, families, possessions, friendships, you name it to try to fix our brokenness and pain, but it just doesn’t seem to work.  Sometimes we go to extremes and try to let alcohol or drugs mask our pain, but that too doesn’t seem to do the trick.  You know what is missing? Jesus! 

Jesus is the only one who can heal our brokenness.  Everything else is just a temporary bandage on the situation.  He knows us better than we know ourselves; He hears our cries even before we utter a sound.  He love is so wide, deep, extensive, I don’t think it can even fully be described.  Once you feel Jesus’ love surround you, everything else means nothing. 

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3

I love Christian music and Chris Tomlin’s “I Lift My Hands,” beautiful describes Jesus.

“Be still, there is a healer

His love is deeper than the sea

His mercy, it is unfailing

His arms are fortress for the weak…”

Having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ means having someone in your life who loves you despite of everything you’ve said, done, or thought.  His arms are always open, no matter what you’ve done in the past.  He waits for us with arms wide open ready to heal our wounds and transform our lives.  As much as we think retail therapy, alcohol, relationships or even chocolate will do the trick when we are in pain, none of this comes close to the peace, comfort, and healing we find in the arms of Christ. 

So here I am admitting to you that I am humpty dumpty.  I try over and over again to us the things of this world to heal my disappointment, sadness, and fear, but it just doesn’t work. I am a broken person in need of Savior.  I fall Him daily, but He still loves me.  I can run to Him and He will always be there for me.  The same is true for you.  Jesus is waiting for you to jump into His arms and to know the love He has for you.

I know its crazy for me to compare our lives to humpty dumpty, but when it all comes down to it we are broken in need of healing.  We just have to remind ourselves that we can’t go it alone, we desperately need Jesus in our lives.  We need His love, peace, and guidance.  Again and again I fail because I forget to rely on my loving, Savior.  The story of humpty dumpty sure convicted me today, never thought that would happen!

Praying for any of you reading today.  Know you are deeply loved and never to far gone for Christ’s healing power!

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Lighting the Way

October 5, 2012 2 Comments

I am experiencing a new way of learning this year—night classes!  I moved back home to save some money, so I attend classes at a local college.  Usually when I get home on my longest night of classes it is around 9:30-10:00.   I am sleepy and worn out.  As I head on the highway, cranking up my Christian music and singing as loud as I can, I discovered something.

I watch as the headlights in my car illuminate my path, just enough so I can see a little ways in front of me.  Isn’t that what Christ does for us?  He gives us just enough direction, help, encouragement to see what is facing us that day, hour, minute.  He doesn’t show us the entire path, just enough of what we are facing in that moment.  As much as I would love for Him to tell me exactly what I will be facing for the rest of my life, I am glad He doesn’t .  I am worrier, so that wouldn’t be beneficial for me.  I would be over thinking every situation.

Unfortunately, we live in a scary world, filled with family problems, illness, violence, economic crisis, poverty, you name it.  But, Christ is our light in that darkness. He gives us just enough light to make it through that moment.  I know I couldn’t make it without Christ.  I try to be a strong, independent woman and do things on my own, but that’s not how it works.  I try and fail because I am suppose to be depending on God.  We don’t like to seem weak, but we are weak.  The world says: “Do it on your own.  You don’t need anyone but yourself.  Strong, independent women are the ones that will make it in this world.”  Christ reminds me, “Rest in Me.  I love you so much that I would die for you.  Trust in Me because I hold your life in my hands.  Stop wearing yourself out by trying to do it all on your own.”

2 Corinthians 12:9-11

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Paul definitely got it right.  He realized that he was strongest when he was weak.  What a concept!  The world would laugh at that, but Christ can do amazing things through out weaknesses.

I imagine driving home from class without my lights on.  I would get lost or go right into the ditch.  Without Christ’s guidance in our life, without His light guiding our path, we get lost and confused.  As I am writing this, I am being convicted.  I haven’t been turning my “lights” on.  I haven’t been relying on Christ’s strength and reading my “car manual”, the Bible.  It is time to go back to the basics.

I can just keep the lights on and go about my day lost, worn out, confused.  Or I could turn my high beams on, trusting God will light my path and guide me in the right direction.

Psalm 119: 105

Your word is a lamp to my feet, And a light to my path.

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Accepted in Christ

April 25, 2012 4 Comments

I have to be honest with you today, I am struggling.  As much as I try to tell myself that I don’t long to fit in and be accepted, I am struggling with just that.  Whether it be trying to find acceptance with my peers or those on  blogs and Twitter, I have been struggling with wanting acceptance.  As humans, we long to fit in and be accepted,  but what makes all the difference is realizing that we are already accepted.  We are accepted by a loving Savior.  When we forget to look to Him for our purpose and acceptance, we look to the world to fill the place in our life.  The world can never fill that hole in our heart, only Jesus can.  Even as believers, we know we are already accepted but we forget that and start to look for acceptance from friends, family members, peers, and boyfriends/girlfriends.  I don’t know about you, but when I go searching for acceptance from others, it leaves me drained and worn out.

“You don’t have to try so hard to ‘fit in.’ God thinks you’re pretty great just the way He made you.” Caleb Grimm (Member of Anthem Lights)

“It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.” Psalm 118:8

I have to find my true happiness and peace in the loving arms of my Father.  It shouldn’t even matter how many people are following me on Twitter or how what my peers think, I need to find my acceptance in Christ.  Sure, I get pretty excited when people want to follow me, but that can’t provide me with true happiness, it is just a tool for me to share the Gospel and encourage others.

It is time that I let go of what has been holding me back.  I don’t need to search for acceptance from others because Christ has already accepted me.  I need to focus my eyes on Jesus and surround myself with Him because when I take my eyes off of Him, that’s when everything falls to pieces.  God is really working on my heart in this area of my life, and I can’t be too busy to take the time and listen to Him!  Does it mean that I won’t struggle at times with acceptance?  No, I am work-in-progress and I will still struggle.  But, when I focus my eyes and heart on Jesus, I will find the strength I need to ward off the negative thoughts and lies!

Are you struggling with acceptance today?  Run to the arms of your loving Heavenly Father—He loves and accepts you!
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Paid In Full

April 7, 2012 2 Comments

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Today I was reflecting how amazing it is to have a Savior who died on the cross for my sins.  I started to think about what it would be like if someone handed me check in the amount of my huge student loan debt.  Christ did something more amazing than that—He paid the price of my sin debt, a debt that I could never pay off myself.  No amount of good works could ever pay off the debt.  I am so in aware of what Christ did for you and I on the cross.  He was sinless and blameless, he lived a perfect life,  yet He took the punishment of my sins.  My sin debt is no more because of what Christ did on the cross. [Read more...]

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I Want to Live Like That

March 2, 2012 2 Comments

This week I got a call from my mom urging me to turn to KLove that instant because her new favorite song was on.  I could hear her singing to it in the background but I didn’t recognize it.  So, I turned on Klove and I heard “Live Like That” by Sidewalk Prophets.  No wonder she was demanding I turn on the radio that very instant–it’s an amazing song.  On the drive back home today, I listened to that song for a straight hour; that shows you how much I love it.

I have been struggling lately over how I’m doing when it comes to showing Christ’s love to others. [Read more...]

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